Hear me ranting.
I'm bad at memorizing. Horrible. A glance at my SPM result can prove that. Prinsip Perakaunan? 1A. Pendidikan Muzik? 1A. Additional Mathematics? 2A. Sejarah? ..................4B. That one subject ruined my chances for a lot of things.
I'm memorizing for PSA420 (Public Sector Accounting) now and it's very, very excruciating. The only bearable part about the course is the Vote Book, which is the only place where we actually put our mathematical ability to use. I don't like this even more than Commercial Law. Lets hope my result this time won't be as bad as that. I'm currently using all my willpower to stop myself from screaming YARGHHHHHH!!!!! and all my strength to keep the book in my hands.
I'm not sure if this is some kind of mental block or something, but I think my brain is not wired for memorizing. However hard I try, I can't seem to be able to do well in that department. Maybe it's the painstakingly repetitive nature of it gets me agitated. My average brain which is not gifted with that ability to remember facts at first read and my heart which sets PSA to 'I don't like this' are agonizing here.
Why do I write this? Shouldn't I be reading about the roles and responsibilities of Treasury or something? Well, I need to get this out. My housemates already had their fair share of my "susahnya nak hafal ni~" so I'm sharing this with you, O wandering visitor.
Now I'm sure of it. That paper is going to bring me down. How can I tell? Well, right now I'm hoping for a mere 'pass'. Yes, I did that bad. And no, I'm not exaggerating.